
Carl Pollard
I want to be bold, but sometimes I’m afraid. Big decisions can be intimidating. I aspire to be committed, yet I often back down even when I know I shouldn’t. I want to please people, but at times I let them down. Occasionally, I fail God. That is why Peter deeply resonates with me.
Many people relate to Peter because, as humans, we constantly fall short. However, scripture provides us with examples to reflect upon, and there is no better example than Peter. He faced failures, yet he grew from them.
Eugene Peterson once said, “Among the apostles, the one absolutely stunning success was Judas, and the one thoroughly groveling failure was Peter. Judas was a success in the ways that most impress us: he was successful both financially and politically. He cleverly arranged to control the money of the apostolic band and skillfully manipulated the political forces of the day to accomplish his goals. In contrast, Peter was a failure in ways that we most dread: he was impotent in a crisis and socially inept. At the arrest of Jesus, he collapsed—a hapless, blustering coward. In the most critical situations of his life with Jesus, such as the confession on the road to Caesarea Philippi and the vision on the Mount of Transfiguration, he often said embarrassingly inappropriate things. He was not the companion we would want in times of danger nor the person we would feel comfortable with at a social gathering. Yet time has reversed our judgments on the two men. Judas is now a byword for betrayal, while Peter is one of the most honored names in the Church and the world. Judas is a villain, and Peter is a saint. However, the world continues to chase after the successes of Judas—financial wealth and political power—while defending itself against the failures of Peter—impotence and ineptness” (quoted in Tim Kimmel, Little House on the Freeway, 191-192).
When we examine Peter, we see a committed follower of Christ. Though he stumbled often, he remained dedicated to Jesus. He abandoned his home and career to follow Him, making his life a full-time service to Christ. Many Christians today attempt to separate their spiritual lives from their “real” lives, often settling for just a piece of Jesus. In contrast, Peter desired for Christ to be his entire life.
In John 13:6-9, we read: “So He came to Simon Peter. He said to him, ‘Lord, do You wash my feet?’ Jesus answered and said to him, ‘What I do you do not realize now, but you will understand hereafter.’ Peter said to Him, ‘Never shall You wash my feet!’ Jesus answered him, ‘If I do not wash you, you have no part with Me.’ Simon Peter said to Him, ‘Lord, then wash not only my feet, but also my hands and my head.’”
Peter longed for his life to be filled with Christ. Pliny the Elder, a Roman writer from the same era as Jesus, recounted a story about the erection of an obelisk that would stand 99 feet tall. Twenty thousand workers were chosen to pull on the ropes and activate the hoisting apparatus. The operation was fraught with responsibility and risk; one mistake could cause the obelisk to fall, ruining years of effort. The King demanded that the engineer focus entirely on the task, so he ordered the engineer’s own son to be strapped to the apex of the obelisk, ensuring that both his heart and mind were committed to the task.
On an even larger scale, our commitment to Christ affects thousands, perhaps even millions of people. Their souls are in the balance, and a half-hearted Christian walk does not honor that responsibility. How do we feel about Christ? Do we merely want a piece of Him on Sundays, or do we desire for Him to be immersed in every aspect of our lives?
“It is not what men eat but what they digest that makes them strong; not what we gain but what we save that makes us rich; not what we read but what we remember that makes us learned; not what we preach but what we practice that makes us Christians.”
Peter was far from a shallow disciple; he genuinely sought Christ in his life. As he said, “Behold, we have left everything and followed You” (Mark 10:28).





